I won’t give the long looooong story about the years I spent believing I was straight, just “damaged” or sterilized or stupid.
Instead, let’s look at what happened when I discovered demisexuality AND grey-asexuality. I confided in my beloved that I found something that made such perfect sense, why I never lusted for him until we were close for many, many months, and yet still without notice the feelings and the very experience of understanding feeling sexual would still slip and ebb, returning me to my primordially asexual state.
I told him all of this, and he smiled and said “That makes sense! I always thought you might be a little different.”
I identify as both demi and grey-A because of the aforementioned patterns in my attraction. When I’m feeling very demi… he loves how intensely I am attracted to him.
Now he is so sensitive to my boundaries, and he knows when I’m feeling “grey” not to confound me with advances. I have never made more sense to myself, or my lovers, and the confidence in myself I’ve had since discovering what I really am has been unshakable.
When I see drama on the tags, all I have to do is remember how utterly things suddenly CLICKED when I discovered my sexuality was a thing, and that other people experienced it too. I hope you all remember that as well, no matter what stupid shit people have to say about you.